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Kristy's Private Weight Loss Journey - Week 8

  • Starting weight (2/14): 204.8
  • Current weight (4/11): 190.7
  • Goal weight: 150-155
  • Pounds lost: 14.1

This past week I was speaking to a woman who was thinking about starting a weight loss program at Life Time. During our conversation she said she knew what she needed to do, she just couldn't get herself to actually do it. I understood exactly what she meant. For the majority of my life, that's been me. Every time I've found myself overweight, which has been more common than not, I felt like I understood what I needed to do to lose the weight, but I frequently lacked the motivation to actually do it. Or, when I did manage to take the weight off, I eventually ended up reverting to the same old unhealthy patterns and the weight would come right back.

With only four short weeks left in my Private Weight Loss program, I found myself wondering if this time is any different. I took some time to think through where I am today compared to every other time I've lost weight. I discovered that I'm in a very different place and I have some very good reasons why I'll eventually reach a healthy weight and why, this time, I'm going to keep it off.

1. I am fed up and eager for change.

I've lost weight and gained it back more times than I'm willing to count. My closet contains "fat", "working on it" and "skinny" sizes. I've held on to all of them because I have never felt confident that my weight wasn't going to change. I'm done with staring at my closet full of clothes feeling like I have nothing to wear. I'm tired of trying diet after diet just to eventually go off the diet, watch all my efforts disappear and the "fat" clothes go back on. To put it simply, I'm sick of this. I'm done with spending every waking moment thinking about my weight—either trying to take it off or keep it gone. This time I'm doing something completely different and coming out the other side a new person.

2. I know what I want.

This time it's not just about losing weight. This time I want to create a life for myself where food doesn't feel like my enemy and exercise doesn't feel like torture. I want to fuel my body in a way that keeps it healthy and lean and leaves me feeling satisfied and content. I want to crave foods that are good for me and have no interest in the ones that aren't. I want to enjoy being active and feel comfortable doing whatever I want to do, whenever I want to do it. I want to create a new way of life, lose the weight and never, ever, need to go through this again.

3. I understand what I'm doing.

This time I'm not just going through the motions or forcing myself to follow a plan I don't completely understand. Through the Private Weight Loss program and the education I've received from Cliff and Kathleen (my Weight Loss Coach/Registered Dietician and Personal Trainer), I understand exactly why I'm doing everything I'm doing. Understanding the effects of my choices will keep me from going back to the way I used to live. This time I will be able to look at unhealthy foods and not just see the calories or the fat, but the effect the foods will have on my metabolism, the stress they will put on my body and the disrespect I would be showing myself if I ate them. When I exercise, I will think about how my actions are making me healthy and vibrant, not just how many calories I'm burning. This time I will feel like I am deliberately choosing this lifestyle every time I step into a grocery store or pick up some dumbbells.

4. I accept the discomfort.

This process is hard and there will be times when I don't want to keep going. I will feel sorry for myself and curse people who don't have to work so hard or make such huge changes in order to be healthy. I will feel lost and confused about how to make this work for the rest of my life, and some changes will feel downright impossible in the beginning. I know this isn't easy, but I also know that in the end I will figure all of this out and my new life will become as comfortable as the old one. This time I accept temporary discomforts in exchange for a happier, healthier life.

5. I am focused on the future, not the end.

Every other time I've lost weight, I temporarily followed the program or plan, but I never truly changed the way I lived. I kept yearning to reach my goal weight so that the plan could end and I could go back to eating "normal." This time I'm not just taking temporary measures to lose the weight. I'm creating a whole new "normal" and reaching my goal weight isn't the end. It's simply a side effect of the new life I've created. Instead of dreaming of the past, I'm looking forward to the future.

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Reader Comments (5)

Hi Kristy,

Thank you for your post. As I was reading I thought you were talking about me. I am in week two of my "newest" weight loss journey. It is nice to know that someone out there is like me. I have approximately 100 lbs to lose and it feels really overwhelming now but if I focus on one week at a time, it is a little less scary.

All the best for your future!

April 15, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterHeather Weir

I too set out on the same goal for the 90 day. My goal was to lose 60 lbs in the 90 days, win it and spend the money on training and nutrition stuff and a well needed massage. I have always set goals and tried my darnest to obtain them. My trainer, Jeremy, was behind me 110% and with finally being the healthiest I have been in 2 years we attempted to try. Well... 60+ days into it and I am right where you are! I seem to be mirroring everything you are! Can't lose the weight, did the calorie point and found out I am just burning straight carbs. Did my S & R and found out that it was so out of whack it wasn't funny! Doing only protein and vegetables for meals (yes, no gluten, dairy, and 1 fruit a day if that), dynamic greens daily, Made lifestyle changes and still nothing. Jeremy and my R.D., Bobbie, who have time and time again reminded me that we will get this figured out. Changes take time, and with what I have been through, may take more than 90 days to lose! I may not win this now, but I can always make my own "90 day" and push myself! I have done things I never thought in my wildest dreams I would ever do. I did the Indoor Tri, finally can RUN sprints on the treadmill and not just "think" about it, now toying with doing Alpha Games just to prove I can! My journey has no where been a piece of cake but the strides that I have made are HUGE!
What you have shared today is EXACTLY what I need to remember! Since I started at LTF I have lost 50 lbs in 2 years. I've written my story and man, looking back on that and talking to Jeremy, I FINALLY hear it in my thoughts and talking things out, that It really does work!!! Changes start to make sense. Sorry for the ramblings but you have been an inspiration for someone who has been down this road and just needed someone that "understands" what is going on! Just wanted to say, you have NOT been alone! Same boat here and I would love to see us both sail this one into the sunset and see a new "luxury" model come into shore!
Thank you Kristy for all the inspiration and please continue!!!
Amy in MN

April 15, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterAmy Richardson

Heather - It does feel so overwhelming in the beginning! I spent the first two weeks living in a blur of confusion. I couldn't imagine how all of this was going to work. This is a huge transition and it's great that you know you'll need to take it a step at a time. That has been one of the most important lessons I've learned so far. Taking it slow and letting things sink in will make the difference between going through the motions and making this your new life. Best of luck with your journey! I'm sure you'll do great!

Amy - Doesn't it just make you crazy! You feel so great about all the wonderful changes you are making, but you keep wanting to see that scale MOVE! The thing that I've been trying to remember is that losing any weight at all is progress. A pound lost is a pound I'll never have to lose again. If we incorporate everything we're learning into your lives, we'll never have to wrestle with our weight again! Doesn't that sound amazing?! Just the idea makes me giddy. Forget the 90 days. In the end, we'll both be winners for the rest of our lives! :) Keep up the great work!

April 16, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterKristy Seeger

Nice to read your words. I entered the 90 day challenge, work with a PT, got a meal plan, followed it and this is what it has been for me ... gained some pounds, No change whatsoever in the direction i want. I always ate healthy,so major change in diet was really increasing proteins. So compared to that your 14 is an awesome job .. :)

April 17, 2012 | Unregistered Commenterneelam

HELP! Can we Talk???

July 8, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterMrs C

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